Why I’m here …

I drink too much, it’s really that simply. So with a view to try not to drink I’ve decided to write about it. After all it seem to be what all the cool kids are doing.

I have not had a drink for 7 days, which doesn’t seem like a lot but this is probably the longest I’ve gone without in about 18 months. It feels a bit like serendipity helped make my mind up, here how this all began…

On Friday (4/1/19) me and the Mr decided to run away for a weekend in our van. And although we had agreed to not drink for a while because we’re trying to loose weight, the question of wine/beer was raised. Should we take some, how much should we take, should we take enough for Friday and Saturday night, where should we get it from, the questions went on and on and backwards and forwards. As we went around and around, I was browsing though my Facebook feed and up popped an ad for a blog called “tired of thinking about drinking” talk about a light bulb moment. That is exactly how I felt, I’m tired of measuring time by when it’s okay to have the next drink or night out, I’m tired of planning weekend activities that allow me to drink rather than get out and about. Mostly I’m tired of kidding my self that I don’t have a problem!

So wine was off the table and I downloaded Belle Robertson book and started to read. We spent the weekend walking, talking reading and drinking tea. As I worked my way through the book I realised I was a lot worse that Belle, my consumption was higher if not as regular and the day to day effects were worse than I had been prepared to admit or acknowledge. Over the next few days I read other blogs, NHS resources, but most importantly had a very calm conversation with the Mr. We are doing it we are stopping drinking.

I start day 7 in a calm place, it remains to be seen how the rest of the days go.